The In-Crowd
I was at work when I received a call from the HR director that originally interviewed me. The call was right on schedule, exactly one week from the interview date. How efficient.
Unfortunately, I missed it.
Now I was in a predicament. How could I return the call without letting anyone know I was applying for other jobs?
I was dying to know, my stomach was already feeling queasy. Could I escape on the pretense of a coffee run? Coffee runs at 12:30 seem somewhat suspicious. Hmmm.
Today happened to be a bug office potluck, so I dropped off my golden brown and bubbly, breadcrumb-crusted eggplant and spinach lasagna in the conference hall and headed back to my office while no one was looking. Très stealth.
Okay, I really don’t like being sneaky, but my destiny was just a phone call away. Can you blame me?
So I called on my cell phone. The very nice HR director picked up, and promptly put me on hold. Oh my goodness, just relax. Why was I feeling like a criminal?
When she returned, she asked me for my feedback on my interviews. I interviewed with three people, so I gave her my comments. The whole time I was thinking: this is not good. I want feedback from you. Obviously, I wasn’t going to tell the HR director that I was quite certain I blew the interview, especially considering that wasn’t the case.
So she told me that everyone that met me enjoyed speaking with me. (Not good.) The feedback was very positive. (And?) They had selected a finalist. (Okay?) They have decided to go with someone from inside.
No! I felt like I was in a Wonder Years episode. Inside I released a huge scream of anguish, outside I said I understood and calmly thanked her for interviewing me. I reinforced that I would like to be kept in mind for any future openings. I shall further reinforce this in the thank you notes I will be sending to all the involved parties.
Wow. I had rearranged my work schedule to attend two interviews. I had almost gotten caught when I arrived at work wearing a suit; fortunately, I had a big meeting at the office that afternoon. (My co-worker didn’t seem to buy my explanation.) I had agonized over e-mail versus hand-written thank you notes. I had bought a new suit. The weeks of preparation, interviewing and anticipation were summed up, concluded and tied with a bow in the span of 3 minutes and 43 seconds—according to my phone clock.
I guess if they had to select someone instead of me, there is a small measure of reassurance in the knowledge that it was someone from inside. It is pretty hard to compete with someone the employer knows and has witnessed in the work environment. At the same time, when will I be on the inside?
Fortunately, a glass or two of wine and a good friend goes a long way to soothe the dejected soul. It’s time to stick my chin out and try again.










